Wow, Sabrina, so sorry you are dealing with all of that -- and sorry that you lost your kids. I could point you to a lot of different agencies but they are so well presented elsewhere I am going to send you there. This article called I Need Help tells you how to find help in a number of areas including housing, food, utilities, prescription drugs, assistance for those with disabilities and more. You should really check it out!
In addition I would really recommend that you go and speak to a few helpful organizations:
- the Salvation Army and/or your local Community Services Agency;
- the Federal Housing Agency office nearest you (just do an internet search); and
- a church. Yes. If you are not already part of a warm and welcoming church, please find one. You need the kind of supportive community they can provide.